POST 78

So it's 3:25 am and I am awake. I had a migraine so I slept for 3 hours earlier around 9. I'll probably go to sleep soon, but I guess I have nothing better to do than this. Not much to say. Life is pretty good. Changed my name. I'm now Simone Fox. Once I change it with the bank, I will also change it with the school and then it will be final. Took a few months, but it's finally over. Well, honestly, it took a almost a year and half, but I feel like now that my name is changed I have finally moved past my Dad. I blocked his number a while ago. I find myself wondering if he will call sometimes, but not often. I hope so much that I have moved on. I feel like I have, but I have lingering thoughts sometimes. Also, sometimes, my actions are strange and the only explanation I can give is something to do with my family situation. I have been trying to be less unusual though. I'm still my quirky self though!

I've become really into photography this year. I have no experience whatsoever in it, but my photos are so good people are coming up to me and asking me to take photos of them. I really love it. It makes me feel like I have talent, because I have taken no classes in this. For the first time, I think I may be a natural at something. Literally. I especially enjoy people, nature, animals, and landscape photography. I love humans and their faces, close ups of flowers, leaves or anything intriguingly intricate, cute squirrels, birds, cats and dogs, and the view from a mountain. I plan to take a few classes before I graduate, and then start a photography business on the side. Photography makes me very happy, and people keep telling me I have a talent and it's actually unnerving me because all my photography skills come from none other than yours truly. I have no outside influence. I just do what feels right and it happens to be more than that.

I am also coming around to deciding what I may want to do after graduation or a career. I am liking the idea of being a book editor. Not a hot shot 6 figure making editor of some prestigious publishing company, but someone who sits around and edits grammer and such. I did use to love reading, but as I found in the recent past reading bores me to the bone, but when I'm sitting there editing it, I'm doing something with my brain. It's being worked, and that's something I need. With a Bachelor's degree in English and concentration in Creative Writing, it is probably a feasible career choice. Anyway, I just started thinking about it, so nothing is certain yet. But I hope it turns out to be the right choice.